What I’m about to share is not my proudest moment.
When I was in middle school, I actually broke up with my girlfriend on Valentine’s Day.
I know, it’s horrible. Or is it?
I was in 7th grade, I believe, and I think it was my first “girlfriend.” I was extremely emotionally mature, and I don’t think I wanted to even be in a relationship. I remember my friends pressuring me to ask her out after a middle school dance. Fun times.
Well, my anxiety got the best of me, I couldn’t decide what gift to get her for Valentine’s Day, and I ended up getting her nothing AND breaking up with her over the phone. I didn’t even know her that well, and my mind was spinning. It was just all too much for me.
Now, granted, I could have handled this a lot better. But it’s helping me illustrate my point. I remember feeling SO MUCH pressure to do everything right on Valentine’s Day. And this was pressure that was coming from my peers in middle school. Middle school.
This was a time of my life that I should have not worried one iota about Valentine’s Day. But I succumbed to the pressure. And it became unbearable for me, leading me to make a really foolish decision.
Why am I sharing this with you?
Because we carrie our memories with us throughout our lives. Big, pressure-packed days like Valentine’s Day, Christmas, Hanukkah, or whatever it might be, leave marks on our bodies and minds. Even if we don’t remember the exact events, our bodies do. And this can impact how we feel years into the future.